What is this proverbial inability to remain confident in Christ in me and who I am in Christ?
Girls, I know you know what I 'm talking about.
Things are fine and then suddenly, out of nowhere, something happens and we feel rejected, disappointed, let down, discouraged, deflated, unworthy...not enough. We forget to Whom we belong.
Why do we (I) look to other things to make us feel important, give credibility to and validate who we are? For example...the number of facebook friends or twitter followers or blog subscribers. Or why is it so easy to feel neglected or left out when someone doesn't meet our expectations or fulfill certain unwritten rules of friendship?
I have to (and hate to) admit, I notice the number of followers on my facebook writer page and blog, especially since recently trying to learn about building a platform, increasing traffic and expanding reach. Somehow this is supposed to confirm my calling or validate that I am a real writer? I feel a certain accomplishment when I have snagged a new face or added a new name to my audience or friend list. Someone likes me. But what happens when that number decreases? Someone doesn't like me anymore? I immediately wonder who and why and what did I say or do that could have offended someone. Silly, especially reading the words now.
A common trap set to complicate our journey. A root of rejection from our past. Insecurities and fears of being unloved and misunderstood. Pressure to perform and succeed and be something some one else thinks we should be. Envy and jealousy causing us to look at what others have or do or are...and what we don't have, can't do and are not. Lies that whisper we are not good enough and cannot measure up.
Yesterday I took advantage of being in bed all day with strep and read some inspiring blogs. Jean from Healthy Spirituality spoke to my heart. She said, "Lord, I always think some of your spiritual giants - Abraham, Moses, David - were born with deep faith....yet in today's reading, Abraham first believed in your promise, then his faith grew." Abraham never wavered in believing God's promise. In fact, his faith grew stronger and in this he brought glory to God (Romans 4:20).
It is in our believing God's promises that our faith is strengthened. Abraham, like us, was born with the potential and ability to believe and become what he was created to be...he was not born complete. He had choices to make and voids to fill. Moses, too,had to decide where to put his confidence. He had to choose even in the midst of his doubts and fears and insecurities. Traveling an imperfect and messy journey, he often paused to give ear to what he was not capable of doing, what others could do better and at times gave in to weaknesses begging to be recognized. But ultimately he chose to believe what God said and promised to do.
We, too, have to make that choice. No matter how messy or imperfect our journey may be, God has a plan and has promised that He will be with us. He has also promised to provide the tools and equipment we need not just to finish the tasks before us but to finish our race well.
He longs to heal our wounds and fill those empty places crammed with things that will never satisfy.
It doesn't matter how many "likes" we have (except technically for those of us pursuing publication it does matter in that sense), how many events we are invited to or not, how many times our words are rejected or at how many venues we are asked (or not asked) to speak. Our circumstances, trials or hurts do not define us but they can serve as a prod to push us closer to God, refining us and molding us into a vessel that will bring Him honor and glory.
We are daughters of the King. He loves us unconditionally and perfectly. He thinks good thoughts toward us. He chose us.
Let us put our confidence in the One who will never let us down. The One who never changes. The One who empowers us to love and speak and write anyway.
Let us choose to believe His promises, increase our faith and bring glory to Him.
It is better to trust in the Lord than to put confidence in man...(Psalm 118:8).
For the Lord will be your confidence and will keep your foot from being caught (Proverb 3:26).
In the fear of the Lord there is strong confidence, and His children will have a place of refuge (Proverbs 14:26).
See what great love the Father has lavished on us, that we should be called children of God! And that is what we are! (1 John 3:1a).
Now faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see (Hebrew 11:1).
Linking with Jen at Finding Heaven Today...(Jen's link will go live at 8 PM Monday)
and counting gifts with Ann V.
#36-45 of counting my gifts, unending...
36 quiet moments to bask in God's presence and study the Word
37 unexpected opportunities to grow
38 our family of five
39 unconditional, perfect love
40 great fathers in the faith who have gone before us
41 refining, even when it hurts
42 raindrops on a sun scorched land
43 food on our table
44 laughter in our home
45 grace which abounds