Monday, March 25, 2013

There Are Days I Want To Quit

There are days I want to quit.

Days I want to turn off the computer, lay down my pen, and submit an application to a sophisticated boutique where my employee discount would get me twenty percent off of cute shoes and pretty dresses.

I have thought about it, you know.

I wonder, is this thing I'm doing making a difference?

Should I venture from this place and look for something new?

And then the thought of not writing makes my heart ache.

The thought of not sharing through words makes it hard to breathe and I know what, really, I already knew.

I know I belong here with you.

Here in this space sharing life experiences, broken places, and lessons learned.

And there in my writer's desk pounding sentences and building chapters with words that may never be read.

When I'm here I feel like we could sit and have a brownie or I could dip my chocolate covered old fashioned donut in my coffee and you wouldn't mind.

And when I'm there sometimes it's lonely but words heal as they spill out and faith tells me one day they will heal someone else, too.

So I keep writing.

And my heart smiles when you pull up a chair and join me.

Thank you for listening, friends.

And thank you for being a part of this journey, wherever it may lead us.

Is there something you know (but sometimes doubt) you were born to do? Is there a passion for something that drives you forward and keeps you pressing in even when your flesh flirts with discouragement and your heart tempts to fail? I would love to hear this part of your story. :)

10 friends had this to say:

Nancy Kimball said...

Yep. Write. =) If you don't sometimes want to give it all up, I don't think you're doing it right, hehe.

Shelly said...

Well, guess I'm doing it right, then...Lol :) Thanks for stopping by, Nancy! Hugs!

Amy Sullivan said...

I think we all feel like this sometimes, Shelly. You know, the idea of taking a bat to the computer and just walking away...but here's the thing, results or no results, people who write can't stop. It's like breathing...

Thinking about you, girl.

Shelly said...

Amy...I think about you often. And you're so breathing. xo

Being a Child of God..... said...

I think about quitting at least once a week sometimes more. Then someone will remind me that I do it for an Audience of One and not for the glory. The truth sinks in and then I repent for wanting God's glory.

Have a blessed day Shelly.

Shelly said...

So true,'s not about us, but all about Him. Thanks for stopping by today, friend! :)

BARBIE said...

I get this. Some times I wonder if it's all worth it. But I too would feel a terrible ache in my heart if I were to stop. Your words are valuable!

Shelly said...

Thank you, Barbie. Your words are a blessing :)

Kathy Schwanke said...

I really want some chocolate and some coffee now. :)

I haven't visited blogs much since Facebook took over my life. (ok, dominated my online time) But my love for FB is dying with the changes and I am moseying around a bit more again.

The challenge is in having SO much to read...and living life too.

God bless you as you press on to take hold of all He has for you! :)

Shelly said...

So glad you stopped by, Kathy :) Thank you! And blessings to YOU!