Often I sit in my "writing chair" (aka: the cuddler recliner I stole from my husband), the place where stories are formed and words are strung together to take on new meaning, soaking in moments of solitude when the only movements left in the house are those made by sleeping beauties.
Today, I sit alone at my breakfast table (aka: dining table, craft table, game table) reflecting on the last five months and peeking into tomorrow.
And listening for divine direction.
After years of being a stay at home mom, I am now in the middle of my pursuit of a degree in teaching. This past semester proved to be difficult and challenging, perhaps of my own doing, as I wrestled -once again- with the famous question "Is this it?" And with the current education dilemma in our state and the loss of 59 jobs in our school district alone, I have decided to take a step back and re-evaluate this plan.
I know I am called to ministry. Have my education pursuits been but a distraction to a higher calling?
I have just recently allowed myself to say "I am a writer." I know this is part of the ministry God has called me to. Should I focus all my efforts here and not register for school in the Fall?
After having our own home based business for five years, a decrease in contracts resulting in financial pressures caused my husband to return to work for "the man" in November of last year. Should I also look for a part-time or even full-time job outside of our home?
I am believing these questions will be answered over the next few months. I am following God's leading and attending a Writer's Conference, as most of you know, in July. I am going expecting and anticipating great things, but most of all, to hear Him speak to me. I will be gathering knowledge, meeting with publishers and editors and connecting with other writers and women who feel called to ministry. By faith, I will come home armed and ready to go where He says to go, speak what He says to speak, and do what He says to do!
Please say a prayer for me. :)
I am spending this weekend away with my mom and sister for my sister's birthday. My return will mark the beginning of a 30 day research and writing sabbatical as I prepare for the conference.
What's going on in your neck of the woods? Have any of these questions haunted you lately? :) Is there anything I can pray with you about?
Establish my steps and direct them by [means of] Your word... Psalm 119:133a