Complete in His Presence

Finding my way to my quiet place

Reading.

Praying.

Listening.

Expecting.

And then

I feel Your presence

As the weight of Your glory brings me to my knees.

My words seem so inadequate

My lips remain silent,

But my spirit connects

With the One for whom I was created.

Praising.

Worshipping.

Loving.

Being.

Time stands still

And nothing else matters.

I am complete in His presence.

Watching the Wind

Ecclesiastes 11:4

Whoever watches the wind will not plant;
Whoever looks at the clouds will not reap.

Footnote from my bible:
Waiting for the perfect conditions will mean inactivity. If we wait for the perfect time and place for personal bible reading, we will never begin. If we wait for a perfect church, we will never join. If we wait for the perfect ministry, we will never serve. Don't wait for conditions that may never exist.

Wow! I was reading through my journal and found this entry from December. Such a great scripture. I think most of the times I've heard this scripture preached, it was in reference to financial giving (sowing and reaping).

But I think, in general, it could be talking about watching or waiting for the perfect time and place - perfect conditions - before "planting" anything - money, time, talents, etc.

Are you waiting for perfect conditions before you do something that God has already told you to do? Am I?

These conditions will probably never exist.

Are you watching the wind? I looked up the definition of wind and here are some out-of-the-ordinary interesting meanings that I found:

• storm, hurricane (ok, this one was kind of expected LOL)
• any influential force or trend (hmmmm....)
• a hint or intimidation (reeeaaaallly?...)

So what things are influencing or intimidating you concerning that which God has spoken to you or instructed you to do?

I also looked up the word cloud and here is what I found:

• a dim or obscure area in something otherwise clear and transparent (interesting....)
• anything that obscures or darkens something, or causes gloom, trouble, suspicion, disgrace, etc.

Is there something darkening or causes gloom, suspicion or trouble to that which God has spoken to you? Something that was clear but has become dim or obscure (confusion?)..... Something that is keeping you from all that God has for you?

It might be a little windy, with a few clouds (and maybe even some rain), just pull your hair back in a pony tail, put on your baseball cap and grab your umbrella........and keep your eyes on HIM. And listen for His perfect timing (which may not have the perfect conditions we had hoped for!).

(Thanks for listening while I preached to myself!) :)

Keeping My Peace

Confession .....

These last few days I am having to remind myself constantly several truths in order to keep my peace . But I am determined.

Our daughter is graduating, financial pressures are looming, I have recently been bumped up to president of the project graduation/senior trip committee with a major fundraiser approaching, and many many other things that could drive me crazy if I let them. But I refuse! :)

I am also reminding myself that I am not perfect, nor am I a Super Hero (although I could think of a few super powers that would benefit me at the moment!!).

Yesterday, I updated my status on facebook with one of my favorite quotes (again) that is also listed at the side of my blog:

The thing that is really hard, and really amazing, is giving up on being perfect and beginning the work of becoming yourself (Anna Quindlen).

This quote encompasses many different things for me. One thing in particular is that I don't have to be perfect - which means that I don't have to do EVERTHING myself, because I CAN'T! I can only do what I can do and nothing more. Period. There! Said it! One boundary set. :)

Another thing this quote says to me is that its ok to be myself. No matter what people say or what they think I should be doing, as long as I'm doing what I know God wants me to do, IT'S ALL GOOD. :) I am not defined by other people's opinions of me. Once upon a time, I was totally and completely bound up by trying to please people. Talk about Torture! But my chains have been broken! (Although they do at times try to wrap themselves around my ankles for old times sake).

So instead of dwelling on all the things that HAVE to be done NOW and all the pressures that come with it, I choose today, to set my mind on things worthy of my attention, things that bring peace to my spirit and praise to my Father, things that really matter.

I will not worry. I will not be anxious. I will trust and put my faith in my Father who is more than capable of handling anything that comes my way.

Finally, brethren, whatever things are true, whatever things are noble, whatever things are just, whatever things are pure, whatever things are lovely, whatever things are of good report, if there is any virtue and if there is anything praiseworthy - meditate on these things. ~ Phil. 4:8

I pray for you today.......peace, love and happiness! It's all going to be ok!! :)

The Tragedy of Life in the Fast Lane

So.

It has been 33 days since my last post.

I WANT to be consistent.

Really, .....I do.

But, MAN, blogging regularly is HARD for me! I can write in my journal, but to actually have time to sit down at the computer and post what I've written....now, that's a different story!

But.... I press on! :)

So, here is something I wrote in JANUARY (smile).....that I was supposed to post in FEBRUARY (sigh) about speeding and life in the fast lane. :)

A parallel was drawn for me by the Holy Spirit between my busy life and that of a person speeding in a car. I guess sometimes I just don't get it, so God has to use something creative to get my attention. Like a speeding ticket. Ya.

Some of the things that happen or can happen when we are exceeding the speed limit in your car are:

1. We often miss important road signs or exits. (Most of our exits off of the freeway are on the right side. If we stay in the fast lane, we may not be able to get over in time to exit.)
2. We use more gas. (Disclaimer: My friend (R.H.) told me that if you go over 65 mph that you use more gas. Not sure if this is true, but it sounded like it made sense...and it worked well for this post so I thought I'd include it LOL!)
3. We sometimes cannot avoid road hazards that could have otherwise been avoided.
4. We are more likely to be in a collision.
5. It is easier to loose control (especially if the weather conditions are bad).

Sometimes we don't realize we are speeding until it's too late - we hear a siren behind us or perhaps we see a fellow citizen pulled over on the side of the highway searching frantically for their insurance card and driver's license. Ah....a gentle reminder that the speed limit is strictly enforced - so we slam on our breaks and set our cruise control, removing our foot from the gas pedal because we do not trust ourselves...and breath a sigh of relief that we didn't get caught this time (except I did).

As God began to show me this picture (after I got my speeding ticket!), He immediately related it to my own life. When we get so busy , living each day hurriedly and frantically, there seems to never be enough hours to complete our tasks. It is easy to become agitated, frustrated, forgetful, distracted......any of these sound familiar? And most often it's because we have neglected the most important thing, spending time in the presence of God.

Some of the things that can happen if we are too busy:

1. We often miss important signs and strategic exits! (God is speaking and showing us things every day! Are we taking time to see? And in troubled times, He often provides for us a way of escape.....a strategic exit! But if we are not positioned to receive from Him, we miss out.)
2. We use more gas! Seriously....sometimes I am worn out before I even leave the house! Where's my phone? My keys? My list? Hurry Hurry Hurry! :) And by the end of the day.....I am ready to DROP!
3. Road Hazards! Often there are obstacles in our path that can be avoided. But if we are too distracted we may run them over, causing some serious damage!
4. More likely to CRASH! We can get so worn down from stress and/or lack of rest that we get physically sick and literally CRASH!
5. Losing control: When our life is out of balance and too busy, it is easy for things to get turned upside down. We may soon find our self trying to steer our way back onto the course God has set for us.

So how do we know if we are "speeding?" Maybe our speedometer is broken and we don't even know that we're about to crash. We must take a look at the things that occupy our time. How much time is set aside for us to get filled up and refreshed? We must go to the Master Mechanic and allow Him to inspect and repair what needs to be fixed! And make sure our cruise control is set to a safe speed limit! :)

(And always make sure your insurance card is in your car..........just sayin)

Beep Beep.